one of those days....

so today was just not a good day. I'm still bummed from band camp being over. i miss it because its what i was to do, its what i love, and i love all the people that i work with.
I'm going through one of those i hate work days...which is true.. i think i finally have outgrown shopko and need to find a different place to work for now. i still am working with oak creek this season, but not as much as i would like to.
I also am going through one of those 'i have no friends' phases. no one returns my calls, or my messages, and i just feel like I'm alone right now. with no one to turn to. i feel quite alone at the moment, and i hate feeling that way.
i still have no boyfriend, and i try to tell myself that i am okay with that, but in the back of my mind, i still wonder what i am doing wrong. i just wish someone would tell me or help me figure out what is wrong with me. or if someone out there does like me, then god damn it, say something so i don't think I'm such a loner/loser.
with august right around the corner, i am excited for classes to start because then my normal schedule will kick in. sad i know. but i am excited for my last full year of school. i cant believe it. i am a senior, where did the time go?!?!?! this year better be fun and full of excitement, because i want to make it a year to remember.

i should probably go to bed now, so give me a buzz if you wanna help or hang out or just talk.